Ah, how we love a good sleep. It offers an escape from life’s problems and concerns. Better yet, if lucky enough to be graced by a pleasant dream. Such is our indulgence with sleep. Rarely do we realize that sleep puts us in a state of mindlessness. Perhaps we also indulge in this state of ignorance, not having to think.

Many of us know that acceptance heals us. It signifies letting go. There are several lovely ways of expressing acceptance, ie. embracing what has happened; meeting the hurt without denying it; being courageous to face the truth; being open to vulnerabilities; being on friendly terms with the pain, hurt or fear.

The "no right or wrong" does not mean I have to make myself from judgemental to non-judgemental. By the way, that's how the doing (making wrong) goes about trying to be neutral – it tries to be "right" by being non-judgmental or neutral – as such causing conflicts (wrongness) to its already thought system of judgements and preferences.

Shadows are really interesting and somewhat mysterious, yet often forgotten or ignored. I mean who actually even remembers they have one stuck to them all the time?

As I started walking on the spiritual path, or so I thought, I recognized more and more triggers within my space, against the world and myself, and my unwillingness towards my own liberation. I questioned the circles I was in, blaming my not progressing on those who seemingly held me back or caused me constant fear and confusion. And wished to only associate with spiritual beings sharing my same pathway.

Over the years, I thought that since I have read lots of spiritual books and listened to talks, my life would be happy forever. I thought I would be safe and never be hurt. I have even retreated from the outside world thinking the outside world has caused me to suffer. But… life is never a straight line; it is full of ups and downs! So, when facing challenges, I become stuck, standing at the crossroads – feeling lost, frustrated, and doubtful. Whatever that I have read or listened to, all forgotten, and I don’t know how to deal with it.

Year after year, I often wondered why love didn’t appear to me. Just as any teenager wonders the same thing when she sees her peers easily getting into a relationship or out of one. I always felt I was the odd one out.

When you hear the word "commitment", what crosses your mind? "Burden, less freedom, I wish I didn't have to do it, I wish I didn't say yes, when is it going to end, when can I be free from it..." The list goes on.

While comparing notes on our practice the other day, a friend asked, “How long have you been with WISE?”

The song keeps churning in my mind, again and again, long after I sang the lullaby to my little one an hour ago.

This is the best year of my life if there is such a thing as year or life.

I remember at a retreat years ago, having just undergone a process of mind-healing, I remarked: “Last night I slept soundly after all that crying.”

That which belongs to me. Forms my life story. I live an ordinary life or so I thought.

A clear blue sky above, chirping of a sparrow nearby and soft lush grass below your feet. Beams of glorious sunlight warm on your face.

Have you ever experienced catching a mouse that has come visiting your home?

I remember a game I once was fairly addicted to, a candy crush game.

One of my biggest fear is to make mistakes. I used to want perfection.

It hits me recently that we deal with life, not living life.

It has been a long week. No. Weeks, months, or even a year. You vaguely recall happier times when life was good and everything was going well.

Fight or flight?

Everyone experiences fear, yet we don't realise how it occurs.